Beam of Morning Light to Sting's - If I Ever Lose My Faith in You

Sometimes a group of photos need a bit of music to convey a message.
I thought I would work on this project as I found these photos profound the morning I took
them. I have yet to capture a set like this again.
With a bit of help from Sting's song. I think I got my message across, clear.
Enjoy the beauty I saw that one lovely morning gracing our Central Virginia sky.

                   You have to take care of you... before you can take care of others... it's a must!

Sometimes you just need a little rain to wash away... a few things in your life... let it go!

Gently, Tell me (written 2007)

There is an ache in my heart
where it once fluttered
there are tears
distorting the vision of your face
there is a coldness, a frostbite that won’t heal
where deep emotions existed and surrounded me with warmth.

Yet,
there is a distance between us that could benefit us both
benefit by way of healing, for solitude is a great re-juvenator
to our individualism.

Yet,
I am lost without words
I wait patiently
for my silence alone is not enough to sustain
the deep absence I have of you in my heart
where my spirit still hopes and yearns.

Yet,
I only wish you to heal in hopes that you recognize
how much you mean to me and if you wanted to see me
it can be done only if you are interested
for this will not work one sided
it will take both our effort to evolve
from this intrigue for each other, very slowly,
for I have not felt such joy ring and shake me so greatly.

Now,
I feel almost lost searching for your letters
in an empty mailbox or rereading the notes we so freely
passed between us, I don’t want that to end.
I only wish you well and I cannot and have not lied
of how I have felt about you.

So please,
if you are not in the least bit
interested in me romantically
be so kind to gently tell me,
this way I can stop being a fool
swept away with this aura of love
this beautiful intrigue
and be left alone to cry and tug my heart
to stop playing that sweet, sweet song
that has moved me so.

Personally,
it will take me
a long time to recover
from something so close to love
that I sincerely doubt if I can ever
pen up a feeling similar to this again.

 Know who you are.Learn your true self.Feed your soul with
Undeniable spirit. Face your challenges like the warrior and protector of your goodness. Forgive yourself so you can forgive others.But defend your truth till your last dying breath.
Because truth and love...is all there is. I love you.

Conversations That Last All Night

 When talking to a friend there will be times a window is open due to mutual trust.We feel comfortable to share piece of ourselves to them because we've been invited to. With this honor, it is only respectable with great care and consideration, I return with respect and love, something deep to share with them. And the conversation can go all night. (the picture is of dawn I took a few weeks ago)

Tatts:  You are truly gifted, Sweet Kat

 

Kat: Thank you, Tatts. I think being gifted has been a hinder for me. Not many people like hanging with someone like me.  More for my talent than for me as a person.

Tatts: They misread you. So sad.

Kat:  Yes, I know I have often been misread. That I know well. I suppose that's why I'm still single.

Tatts: You must have been very vibrant and bubbly.

Kat: In a way, I still am very much like that. I heard that yesterday at a going away gathering I had.

Tatts:  You are still very vibrant.

Kat: The only thing that changes is your body gets older... and if one accepts the changes... you can grow older gracefully. And some of us look good well. I know I do and I'm happy for that. lol

Tatts: Yes. I agree. You are very different from the girls I know here.

Kat: Thank you. Well, yeah I know I am very different for sure. I never wanted to be like other people. That's the beauty of being an individual... being truly you.

Tatts: So correct, Sweetie

Tatts: I guess you can't keep up any more, Sweetie.

Kat: You know all through the years I see the same complaints with people saying they really want a nice person for a relationship.... but fool around with extreme naughty people that just want to play and are not relationship material at all or they are in between relationships. They never tell you what they want and leave you hanging. They say one thing and want something else.
I was never into mind games. And I won't settle for just anyone either.

Tatts: The sincere ones are very very rare to find, Sweet Kat

 Kat: You got that right. That's why I'm alone.

Tatts: You know. The girl I share accommodation with... we have an open relationship. It's two years and a bit. I know one day it will be over. I know she is into others. it's so hard.

Kats: making tea

Tatts:  Alright

Kat: Yeah it must be hard for you. I couldn't do it (open relationship). I'm so fucking loyal - even to myself. I respect relationships of all kinds. When I come across someone that's in a relationship and they want to fool around with me, I question their devotion, their loyalty... and I'm like, No way.

Tatts: You don't know all about me, Kat.

Tatts: While reading this thread from the start, a friend stumbled on that info. He sent a pm regretting what I had faced when 17.

Kat: Likewise you don't know all about me either. But what I have shared I have conveyed with sincerity. There has been way more hardship before the cancer, before sister's suicide.
as we get to know each other, we allow a bit more as time goes by. So I hope you get your PM.

Tatts: Must be very good. I won't write any more about myself. Sorry.

Tatts: Bad times in our lives. Alas.

Kat: I understand. I am not one to reveal on a public post. If one ask a question I will answer what I feel can be appropriate to me and to the one I am answering. If I feel it's too personal, there is PM for that. and I respect that. Most of my friendships from EP and now here were based on true sincerity within each other. It's nice to have good friendships and I remain extremely stubborn to the vow of loyalty.

Tatts: I lack the maturity you possess.

Kat:  well believe me when I tell you, maturity comes with age and experience. Maturity comes to all of us...at different times different situations. I relish that I am constantly maturing into a quirky wise woman. lol! You are an old soul, Tatts.

Much like I was at your age. I have a forever young heart and I can never change that. lol

Tatts: And I act on the little common sense I have.

Kat: And I am so glad you do have Common sense... I can tell and I like that in you, Tatts Sweetie.

Kat:  Common Sense is a precious valuable quality and rare this day and age. Selfless acts are rare than in my younger days. Consideration for others lacks so much now I am abhorred by the behavior of people.
If I had had a child, I know they would be loving respectable caring human beings because that is the way I am and live.

Tatts: I trust what you wrote here. I have battled odds since i was 17. Lost mom to cancer. Could not adjust to step mother. Moved out. Have been living like that. Letting my instincts guide me.

Kat:  And your instincts is exactly what you ought be going by, my love. You are doing the right thing in doing so. No matter what another may say, even myself can never change what you instincts can guide you, Now, if what a person says matches your instincts, you are in harmony - which is a lovely feeling in itself and rare.

Kat:  These are the conversations I like and admire to have with others on my post as well. I keep saying to people, if you want a Badabing bar, go open one up, I'll close the place and come over and play. But here ( my post) I like just plain fun and good conversation.

Tatts: I like myself

Kat:  And you should like yourself. I'm happy that you do, love. You can't like others if you don't like yourself.
I know I do. I say every morning... ok Kat, time for another adventure, be open, be nice and don't let the door slap you on your ass! lol!

Tatts:  I like myself for whatever I am.
I don't like the 17th birthday. But, I occupy myself with other things. I don't let the past bog me down. if somebody doesn't like me, I quietly move. No complaints.

Kat:  I too have no complaints...just frustrations.

Tatts: I am terrible at diplomacy. I speak up if I feel I should give an opinion. Else, I keep my mouth shut.

Tatts:  I felt you are fond of me. That you are straightforward.
That's why I wrote this much.

 Kat:  And I am very very fond of you, love.

Kat:  At 17. my father left home, had an affair. Left us and mom went back to NYC for a time. It was difficult hold the fort with Mom. I later Forgave my father after their divorce and we got along till his death... we made peace and I love and miss him.
But during that 17th year in my life, I saw a strong woman in mom and said to myself... I can never be like her...but now that I am where I am today. According to a friend I have known for over 30 years... she said. Kate as she calls me from our radio days... you are the strongest woman I know. The sweetest and kind human being, you have never let me or anyone down... your parents are looking at you, proudly. I hope things are better for you. You are family to me. I said thank you so much. That means lots from you.

Tatts: Your friend assessed you very well. Even from long distance, i get the same feeling about you. That's honest, Kat. Luv

Kat:  I have come to know that when responding to someone, they may not deserve your diplomacy. So it's ok if you responded they way you did or do. We all can apologize but there are many times you just got to say something without holding back. Being straightforward is an admired quality, love. I have noticed that very much.

Tatts: I salute you. Brave person.

Kat: Thank you, love. I am the same online as I am in person. No need to be another persona. God it's tough enough being me why should I spend my time being a fake..I don't understand some people.

Tatts: The me inside me tells me that, Kat.

Kat: and I salute you too, Tatts.

Tatts: I don't understand one bit about lots of people. Here as well as in real life. They seem to have a personality disorder. Fakeness. Two faced. Possibly even more than two faces. God!

Kat: Yes some people have multiple personalities...yikes!

Tatts: So true reflections of the realities. Lovely words. Lovely song.

 Kat: Not to say we were all ugly girls as the song may imply... though some of us had awkward situations... so we can relate from it one way or another.

 

Tatts: Exactly, Kat.

Kat:  glad you liked it

Tatts: Oh yes. Lovely.

Tatts: Loveliest written communication i have had with anybody in a long, long time.

Kat: Maybe it should be a blog. lol

Tatts: A grand two-way communication.
I often talk to my inner self this way.

Kat: I do have a blog. Gosh I need to write something soon. I have neglected that. lately. But I do have lots of poetry and other written works, photography and videos I have made over the years. It's nice to have a home to share, for others to read.

Tatts: That must be lovely, Kat

Kat: I write my inner self on the page a lot. lol Helps me make sense of myself, right?

Tatts: Mono-dialogue is my own word. lol

Oh and by the way the song we were discussing 

is just below

Random Thoughts - Blooming Flowers!

 I was very fortunate to visit some friends for a Memorial day cookout and took some photos of their lovely flowers.
I am simply fascinated by their shapes sizes and most of all... Color!

 Each flower has it's own distinctive shape and welcomes the others to form a mini parade
all on their own.
So majestic, so wonderful and lively.










 It's been raining like the blazes here in Central
 Virginia... more in the month of May
than in  April. I've started a raised garden
with hopes to have a few Veggies this year.

I may plant a few flowers...we shall see.
Though I am enjoying the beauty of others garden flowers and gardens of all sorts.
Spring may have been a real wet one...
But such wonders as these are flowers are a gift
to enjoy and make lovely photos to enjoy for
many passing seasons.
I hope you find small treasures around you this Spring and Summer.... cherish the small things 
we all take for granted. Be with nature as they smile at you. Until next time, find joy in all that you do. I love you... K'