Care Of Self

Taking care of self in all aspects is so important to oneself, and attracts partner.

Be no one but you, not what someone else wants you to be.

If they or you can not accept them for all that they are, You are not worthy of each other for inner growth in your journey together.

Strive for personal growth in self, each other with love and gratitude.

You are loved.

Soul Power

What do you want?

Where do you wish to go?

With someone or with yourself

confused?

Look within.

Sometimes we do have to look within for answers

they may not be what you want to hear

but they are real and truth is very real.

Focus on the goals

those beautiful dreams you have

you can make those dreams come true.

Surround yourself with love

love of self, love of home, love of humanity

love of all beautiful...

because all is beautiful in what you see.

A select people or persons come into our lives

mirror what we need to change for the better..

and if we have changed, there IS a new chapter in your life

The people in your life will see this beauty in you

either they will be with you or not...

let go of the ones not on board with you

let go of illusions, addictions, obsessions, confusions,

cloud you.

Welcome your new beginning

you have support.

So find your power

do what is right for you,

do not allow anyone to take your inner power

keep those who only wish to enhance it,

everything will fall into place.

Don't fight the divine

allow it to just happen

do it with love..and love unconditionally,

It's time to cross that bridge of beauty.

Some People...

Some people never tell you

what's inside them

they only talk from the crust of their pie

never give you filling.

You wonder .

Some people come into your life

unexpectedly crash in

make themselves at home

in your heart in your mind.

You wonder.

Some people say one thing

do another

tell you a lie as if it were a truth,

you wonder.

Some people come into your life

for a reason

to tell you something about them

and accept each other

for all that you are.

Stop wondering

it's all a lesson.

Be grateful

tell them you love them,

once the lesson is achieved,

and you both no longer service each other,

you find yourselves arguing. Stop, let go

and move forward with or without them.

We all meet for a reason. 

 

Acceptance

I don't have to defend my feelings nor my worth to you

You don't have to belittle my spirit

I accept you for all that you are

though no matter what I do

is not good enough for you.

Spiritual connections cannot be explained

they just happened

but we met for a reason

to learn a lesson.

I go to bed I ask God for forgiveness

for my sins

I can go to bed with a clean slate

knowing I owned up to my faults

accept my flaws

and work so hard to try to make things better.

Maybe we had to go through all this

we had to...regardless of the outcome.

We just have to deal with it, individually.

Wish for the best for all involved without malice.

Leave, feeling you did your best

wish them love and well in their life.

Because you know who you are

and whether they love you or not.

Know Your Truth

From every challenge that comes

I face it head on to the best of my ability

I will fight with my words of truth, my head of reason

and with my loving my heart.

You may not like what I say or the way I say it,

but this this the way I feel and I will not lie about it.

I will admit my faults and will apologize

I know my flaws and wear them to remind me

that I am imperfect.

I am just as human as you

and while I may not like your behavior

I know there are superior qualities in you

I recognized admire and love about you

no matter your flaws or faults,

I accept you, for all that you truly are.

Though no matter the outcome of the defeated challenge

I have learned another lesson

to work a plan and let go of things inside myself

I no longer need

I gently let them go

It's not about letting go people

because we are all going through different life challenges

we ought to support each other

instead of judging each other.

Because when we start judging each other

you are telling yourself what you need to work on.

Know your truth and be gentle with yourself.

Love & Hugs💋

A Letter To My Old Self

Hello Self,

I have freed myself  from a personal challenge that had me locked up for years. It's like a prison on to myself, and I am out. Everything on the outside is so new because  it's changed, I have changed too. Now I'm not saying change is good or bad, it is what it is.

You get to a point in your life if you don't like something that's going on in your life and you've had enough - it's time to let it go. The baggage of the past slows out progress to move forward, to achieve what is intended for us to do - find our true purpose of our existence. In my case, my writings and photography.

It's not so much leaving people behind, sometimes it's a change of the way the dynamics of a relationship - regardless of what it is. If you want your relationships to work, then put the effort out and  do it. Communicate and make your intentions known and listen to the feedback. At least come to some agreement. Some people will get it, and some won't. But my point is, You have to come clean with yourself. 

Make yourself known to yourself that you are going to be true to yourself and go for what you desire out of life. Those that love you will come for the ride, cheer you on and that's the best offer  anyone can receive as they wish the best and be there for you. Some people you may have to let go because they serve no purpose in seeing you achieve. They just want to stall your progress - those need to do some personal cleansing and look for the beauty within themselves if they choose too.

There has been chaotic energy around me the last couple of months that brought me to this point. It's energy gave me this will to be free. I feel richer for life, I want to breathe and share my love and kindness with you. I love myself so much now, that I can take whatever you have to offer. Only if you  do this with the love. I can understand pain as we all have it whether it be physical, mental, spiritual, emotional or all rolled up as one.

We each must learn that it is up to us to embrace our wishes, our dreams and make them come true no matter how long it takes. Never take yourself for granted and know in time, all wishes and dreams will arrive, when the universe says you are ready.

I can only  write from experience and look back with loving memories that I cannot return to that state of living. I am  free to be creative with all aspects of my life and wish to share them  with you and with that special person to complete the puzzle of my life.

Each piece is a puzzle if we don't look in the pile to search for it. Though we have to move forward no matter if we don't want to. Eventually, you feel a snap and say it's time, so here I am.

I am not saying something to you that you all ready know, maybe you don't. We are all different and cleansing the soul, varies from person to person.

Some people have to go away and figure things out. I was alone for a good number of years so I am compelled to be among the masses to figure what's out there and take risks. At the end of each day when I say my prayers and affirmations. I ask forgiveness for any wrong doing or sins I may have committed, and go to bed with a clear conscious. This is my way of moving forward.

I can't tell you it's easy, nor tell you it's hard. All I can tell you is, if you wish or desire to make things better in your life, then the choice I  had to make is taking the risk. no matter the outcome, I know I tried my best.

I  can think all I  want, over think much? Yes, done that too. I can't weigh pros and cons too much cause that can drive me crazy. I am taking it as a reflection of what to keep or change in my life. I am tired of putting things in the back of my mind saying later, I am done with it.

I am tired of my survival mode which I had to see things in this way or that way - it is what it is and I have to accept it and be open to compromise or come to an agreement with myself and others.

I also have to listen to my heart and allow it to speak. Take the risk to tell someone how I  feel about them and accept the outcome. Again, feeling  good that I tried, and did my best and move forward with or without them. But I will not miss any opportunity in deny my feelings - that is something I did lots in the past.  I am done with that past, too.

We all connect for a reason. Whatever that reason is will reveal itself as time goes by.

We can't force, nor be confused trying to figure a situation  it out. Maybe we're suppose to learn something from all of this .So I am allowing  things to flow and not push for answers because they will come when I am ready to receive them.

I am so into flow cause I have pushed myself too much. I know I have been very hard on myself and  felt I had to be gentle with my surroundings. Continue being true to myself and with others. I have no time for bullshit. I desire personal balance  in both  my mind and  heart. I feel stronger than ever. I see things brighter clearer and welcome this passion for life.

I am happy and in love with myself. I desire that for all. This is the new me and I am embracing it all.

I wish you to be happy and love yourself, too. It's a beautiful feeling.

When you have that feeling, nothing can stop you from moving ahead.

To be happy with love in my heart  is the only forever feeling I want in my life, and I am in it to win what's coming.

I am free to receive.

I have just said goodbye to my old self.

I love you,

Me

Wish You A Very Happy New Year!

A New Year 
of hope and dreams
may they come true
in whatever you do.
Be with Love and truth
in your heart.
Be strong and brave
Learn each day
make new friends
keep those close
never to part.
Let go of the things
you don't need.
But keep yourself
safe until we meet.
Many Blessings.
I love you,
K'

 

                   You have to take care of you... before you can take care of others... it's a must!

Sometimes you just need a little rain to wash away... a few things in your life... let it go!

Conversations That Last All Night

 When talking to a friend there will be times a window is open due to mutual trust.We feel comfortable to share piece of ourselves to them because we've been invited to. With this honor, it is only respectable with great care and consideration, I return with respect and love, something deep to share with them. And the conversation can go all night. (the picture is of dawn I took a few weeks ago)

Tatts:  You are truly gifted, Sweet Kat

 

Kat: Thank you, Tatts. I think being gifted has been a hinder for me. Not many people like hanging with someone like me.  More for my talent than for me as a person.

Tatts: They misread you. So sad.

Kat:  Yes, I know I have often been misread. That I know well. I suppose that's why I'm still single.

Tatts: You must have been very vibrant and bubbly.

Kat: In a way, I still am very much like that. I heard that yesterday at a going away gathering I had.

Tatts:  You are still very vibrant.

Kat: The only thing that changes is your body gets older... and if one accepts the changes... you can grow older gracefully. And some of us look good well. I know I do and I'm happy for that. lol

Tatts: Yes. I agree. You are very different from the girls I know here.

Kat: Thank you. Well, yeah I know I am very different for sure. I never wanted to be like other people. That's the beauty of being an individual... being truly you.

Tatts: So correct, Sweetie

Tatts: I guess you can't keep up any more, Sweetie.

Kat: You know all through the years I see the same complaints with people saying they really want a nice person for a relationship.... but fool around with extreme naughty people that just want to play and are not relationship material at all or they are in between relationships. They never tell you what they want and leave you hanging. They say one thing and want something else.
I was never into mind games. And I won't settle for just anyone either.

Tatts: The sincere ones are very very rare to find, Sweet Kat

 Kat: You got that right. That's why I'm alone.

Tatts: You know. The girl I share accommodation with... we have an open relationship. It's two years and a bit. I know one day it will be over. I know she is into others. it's so hard.

Kats: making tea

Tatts:  Alright

Kat: Yeah it must be hard for you. I couldn't do it (open relationship). I'm so fucking loyal - even to myself. I respect relationships of all kinds. When I come across someone that's in a relationship and they want to fool around with me, I question their devotion, their loyalty... and I'm like, No way.

Tatts: You don't know all about me, Kat.

Tatts: While reading this thread from the start, a friend stumbled on that info. He sent a pm regretting what I had faced when 17.

Kat: Likewise you don't know all about me either. But what I have shared I have conveyed with sincerity. There has been way more hardship before the cancer, before sister's suicide.
as we get to know each other, we allow a bit more as time goes by. So I hope you get your PM.

Tatts: Must be very good. I won't write any more about myself. Sorry.

Tatts: Bad times in our lives. Alas.

Kat: I understand. I am not one to reveal on a public post. If one ask a question I will answer what I feel can be appropriate to me and to the one I am answering. If I feel it's too personal, there is PM for that. and I respect that. Most of my friendships from EP and now here were based on true sincerity within each other. It's nice to have good friendships and I remain extremely stubborn to the vow of loyalty.

Tatts: I lack the maturity you possess.

Kat:  well believe me when I tell you, maturity comes with age and experience. Maturity comes to all of us...at different times different situations. I relish that I am constantly maturing into a quirky wise woman. lol! You are an old soul, Tatts.

Much like I was at your age. I have a forever young heart and I can never change that. lol

Tatts: And I act on the little common sense I have.

Kat: And I am so glad you do have Common sense... I can tell and I like that in you, Tatts Sweetie.

Kat:  Common Sense is a precious valuable quality and rare this day and age. Selfless acts are rare than in my younger days. Consideration for others lacks so much now I am abhorred by the behavior of people.
If I had had a child, I know they would be loving respectable caring human beings because that is the way I am and live.

Tatts: I trust what you wrote here. I have battled odds since i was 17. Lost mom to cancer. Could not adjust to step mother. Moved out. Have been living like that. Letting my instincts guide me.

Kat:  And your instincts is exactly what you ought be going by, my love. You are doing the right thing in doing so. No matter what another may say, even myself can never change what you instincts can guide you, Now, if what a person says matches your instincts, you are in harmony - which is a lovely feeling in itself and rare.

Kat:  These are the conversations I like and admire to have with others on my post as well. I keep saying to people, if you want a Badabing bar, go open one up, I'll close the place and come over and play. But here ( my post) I like just plain fun and good conversation.

Tatts: I like myself

Kat:  And you should like yourself. I'm happy that you do, love. You can't like others if you don't like yourself.
I know I do. I say every morning... ok Kat, time for another adventure, be open, be nice and don't let the door slap you on your ass! lol!

Tatts:  I like myself for whatever I am.
I don't like the 17th birthday. But, I occupy myself with other things. I don't let the past bog me down. if somebody doesn't like me, I quietly move. No complaints.

Kat:  I too have no complaints...just frustrations.

Tatts: I am terrible at diplomacy. I speak up if I feel I should give an opinion. Else, I keep my mouth shut.

Tatts:  I felt you are fond of me. That you are straightforward.
That's why I wrote this much.

 Kat:  And I am very very fond of you, love.

Kat:  At 17. my father left home, had an affair. Left us and mom went back to NYC for a time. It was difficult hold the fort with Mom. I later Forgave my father after their divorce and we got along till his death... we made peace and I love and miss him.
But during that 17th year in my life, I saw a strong woman in mom and said to myself... I can never be like her...but now that I am where I am today. According to a friend I have known for over 30 years... she said. Kate as she calls me from our radio days... you are the strongest woman I know. The sweetest and kind human being, you have never let me or anyone down... your parents are looking at you, proudly. I hope things are better for you. You are family to me. I said thank you so much. That means lots from you.

Tatts: Your friend assessed you very well. Even from long distance, i get the same feeling about you. That's honest, Kat. Luv

Kat:  I have come to know that when responding to someone, they may not deserve your diplomacy. So it's ok if you responded they way you did or do. We all can apologize but there are many times you just got to say something without holding back. Being straightforward is an admired quality, love. I have noticed that very much.

Tatts: I salute you. Brave person.

Kat: Thank you, love. I am the same online as I am in person. No need to be another persona. God it's tough enough being me why should I spend my time being a fake..I don't understand some people.

Tatts: The me inside me tells me that, Kat.

Kat: and I salute you too, Tatts.

Tatts: I don't understand one bit about lots of people. Here as well as in real life. They seem to have a personality disorder. Fakeness. Two faced. Possibly even more than two faces. God!

Kat: Yes some people have multiple personalities...yikes!

Tatts: So true reflections of the realities. Lovely words. Lovely song.

 Kat: Not to say we were all ugly girls as the song may imply... though some of us had awkward situations... so we can relate from it one way or another.

 

Tatts: Exactly, Kat.

Kat:  glad you liked it

Tatts: Oh yes. Lovely.

Tatts: Loveliest written communication i have had with anybody in a long, long time.

Kat: Maybe it should be a blog. lol

Tatts: A grand two-way communication.
I often talk to my inner self this way.

Kat: I do have a blog. Gosh I need to write something soon. I have neglected that. lately. But I do have lots of poetry and other written works, photography and videos I have made over the years. It's nice to have a home to share, for others to read.

Tatts: That must be lovely, Kat

Kat: I write my inner self on the page a lot. lol Helps me make sense of myself, right?

Tatts: Mono-dialogue is my own word. lol

Oh and by the way the song we were discussing 

is just below