House Of Moon

House of Moon

An undeniable magnet are we

joined at the heart

confused in the mind

why?

Emotions

knocking at our heart's door

I want in. I am drawn to you

You are pulling me towards you

I can't resist your sweetness

your kindness

I can't eat nor sleep

my thoughts are guided towards you

For you, have stirred my emotions

that I don't know what to do.

What can I do?

As I exchange my sweetness with you

is this what you truly desire?

all is still unknown

As I draw the cards

The House of the moon reads:

You have a sweetheart that

Loves you.

My head is a jungle

my thoughts are in wonder

my heart has opened the door

my passion heightened

my emotions are ready to merge

with yours. Come in.

The risk is ours to take

let us allow this new discovery

this visit

of a treasure by the divine

and make the best of it.

Soul Power

What do you want?

Where do you wish to go?

With someone or with yourself

confused?

Look within.

Sometimes we do have to look within for answers

they may not be what you want to hear

but they are real and truth is very real.

Focus on the goals

those beautiful dreams you have

you can make those dreams come true.

Surround yourself with love

love of self, love of home, love of humanity

love of all beautiful...

because all is beautiful in what you see.

A select people or persons come into our lives

mirror what we need to change for the better..

and if we have changed, there IS a new chapter in your life

The people in your life will see this beauty in you

either they will be with you or not...

let go of the ones not on board with you

let go of illusions, addictions, obsessions, confusions,

cloud you.

Welcome your new beginning

you have support.

So find your power

do what is right for you,

do not allow anyone to take your inner power

keep those who only wish to enhance it,

everything will fall into place.

Don't fight the divine

allow it to just happen

do it with love..and love unconditionally,

It's time to cross that bridge of beauty.

Acceptance

I don't have to defend my feelings nor my worth to you

You don't have to belittle my spirit

I accept you for all that you are

though no matter what I do

is not good enough for you.

Spiritual connections cannot be explained

they just happened

but we met for a reason

to learn a lesson.

I go to bed I ask God for forgiveness

for my sins

I can go to bed with a clean slate

knowing I owned up to my faults

accept my flaws

and work so hard to try to make things better.

Maybe we had to go through all this

we had to...regardless of the outcome.

We just have to deal with it, individually.

Wish for the best for all involved without malice.

Leave, feeling you did your best

wish them love and well in their life.

Because you know who you are

and whether they love you or not.

Enjoying Spring!

 Hope you are enjoying Spring!
The beauty of nature surrounds
you
envelops you
wants you 
to notice it's here!

 Hear the songs
of birds calling throughout the day.
Take the songs and blend them
into your day.

Be blessed by your surroundings
let go off past habits
behaviors that hold you back.
Time to start anew with passion
and begin and fresh start...
you deserve it. 
Be grateful and love all around.

A Letter To My Old Self

Hello Self,

I have freed myself  from a personal challenge that had me locked up for years. It's like a prison on to myself, and I am out. Everything on the outside is so new because  it's changed, I have changed too. Now I'm not saying change is good or bad, it is what it is.

You get to a point in your life if you don't like something that's going on in your life and you've had enough - it's time to let it go. The baggage of the past slows out progress to move forward, to achieve what is intended for us to do - find our true purpose of our existence. In my case, my writings and photography.

It's not so much leaving people behind, sometimes it's a change of the way the dynamics of a relationship - regardless of what it is. If you want your relationships to work, then put the effort out and  do it. Communicate and make your intentions known and listen to the feedback. At least come to some agreement. Some people will get it, and some won't. But my point is, You have to come clean with yourself. 

Make yourself known to yourself that you are going to be true to yourself and go for what you desire out of life. Those that love you will come for the ride, cheer you on and that's the best offer  anyone can receive as they wish the best and be there for you. Some people you may have to let go because they serve no purpose in seeing you achieve. They just want to stall your progress - those need to do some personal cleansing and look for the beauty within themselves if they choose too.

There has been chaotic energy around me the last couple of months that brought me to this point. It's energy gave me this will to be free. I feel richer for life, I want to breathe and share my love and kindness with you. I love myself so much now, that I can take whatever you have to offer. Only if you  do this with the love. I can understand pain as we all have it whether it be physical, mental, spiritual, emotional or all rolled up as one.

We each must learn that it is up to us to embrace our wishes, our dreams and make them come true no matter how long it takes. Never take yourself for granted and know in time, all wishes and dreams will arrive, when the universe says you are ready.

I can only  write from experience and look back with loving memories that I cannot return to that state of living. I am  free to be creative with all aspects of my life and wish to share them  with you and with that special person to complete the puzzle of my life.

Each piece is a puzzle if we don't look in the pile to search for it. Though we have to move forward no matter if we don't want to. Eventually, you feel a snap and say it's time, so here I am.

I am not saying something to you that you all ready know, maybe you don't. We are all different and cleansing the soul, varies from person to person.

Some people have to go away and figure things out. I was alone for a good number of years so I am compelled to be among the masses to figure what's out there and take risks. At the end of each day when I say my prayers and affirmations. I ask forgiveness for any wrong doing or sins I may have committed, and go to bed with a clear conscious. This is my way of moving forward.

I can't tell you it's easy, nor tell you it's hard. All I can tell you is, if you wish or desire to make things better in your life, then the choice I  had to make is taking the risk. no matter the outcome, I know I tried my best.

I  can think all I  want, over think much? Yes, done that too. I can't weigh pros and cons too much cause that can drive me crazy. I am taking it as a reflection of what to keep or change in my life. I am tired of putting things in the back of my mind saying later, I am done with it.

I am tired of my survival mode which I had to see things in this way or that way - it is what it is and I have to accept it and be open to compromise or come to an agreement with myself and others.

I also have to listen to my heart and allow it to speak. Take the risk to tell someone how I  feel about them and accept the outcome. Again, feeling  good that I tried, and did my best and move forward with or without them. But I will not miss any opportunity in deny my feelings - that is something I did lots in the past.  I am done with that past, too.

We all connect for a reason. Whatever that reason is will reveal itself as time goes by.

We can't force, nor be confused trying to figure a situation  it out. Maybe we're suppose to learn something from all of this .So I am allowing  things to flow and not push for answers because they will come when I am ready to receive them.

I am so into flow cause I have pushed myself too much. I know I have been very hard on myself and  felt I had to be gentle with my surroundings. Continue being true to myself and with others. I have no time for bullshit. I desire personal balance  in both  my mind and  heart. I feel stronger than ever. I see things brighter clearer and welcome this passion for life.

I am happy and in love with myself. I desire that for all. This is the new me and I am embracing it all.

I wish you to be happy and love yourself, too. It's a beautiful feeling.

When you have that feeling, nothing can stop you from moving ahead.

To be happy with love in my heart  is the only forever feeling I want in my life, and I am in it to win what's coming.

I am free to receive.

I have just said goodbye to my old self.

I love you,

Me

Door Closes, Another Door Opens...

Our friendship broke up. I had to end it. I was falling in love with a ghost

and I couldn't do that. She was too anonymous online. She was beautiful. Her energy compelled me to write about love and being in love. Something I miss very much.

We connected through our words and they were lovely. We were drawn to each other

and still to this writing. I desire her, but I can't have her. I love her. To me, she was my soul mate.

She will be the closest person I will have said to be my soul mate. Even though we have never met in person, her impact on my life compelled me to be a better person. She believed in me and desired for me to continue with believing in myself and never give up. With that belief, I am a better person.

I am moving forward with hurt. An ache unbearable in my heart to wear, but  for a bit.

I know what I have to do and ready to achieve. I wish for the best despite of the challenges that come to me. But it's time to stay strong and be the individual  I need to be, to manifest my dreams.

 I don't know if I will ever see her again. I know she's hurting, I can feel her connection.

She taught me to be not to be so hard on myself and be gentle with my words. I am working on this.

we both needed this  distance to breathe and be ourselves because at times, we were lost with each other.

but for now I couldn't  hold on to her. I had to let her go. I love her so much, it aches. My heart is aching and loving me at the same time, beautifully.  To know I can make it on my own. I wish for her to be proud of me as I am to myself. I wish her the same, with all the love in my heart. I am grateful to have known her.

People will come and go into your life to make a connection how long the connection is unknown. Yet we learn the reasons why along the way or when the connection needs maintenance.

I initiated, and take full responsibility for breaking  this friendship and it hurts me badly.

I wish I could take it back, but I won't, I promised to achieve my personal goals alone.

I wouldn't want to be depended on other people. I want them to know I can do  this with

all my soul. I know they wish me well and I am grateful to hear.

the unknown is scary and exciting, with that said, I am looking forward to this new beginning whatever it will be. Staying strong in will. Perseverance  and rest is at hand.

The goal is set and I am ready to move ahead. I surrender  to it with love and truth.

Because truth and love, is all there is.

I love you.

I wish...

I wish I could take back all I said

I know I hurt you

which hurt me badly too.

But I felt I had to defend myself

my true self.

Even if I am in transition to better myself

I want you to know I will be the person you know

better than before.

I know wherever you are,

I know deep down, you want that for me, too.

Not a day will go by

that I will think about you

I wish you would think about me too

I want to see how strong I can be

so you can be proud of me

as I am proud of you.

No matter where I go what I do

whom I meet

I will always wonder

the look on your face

meeting you

face to face.

God, help me

I miss you so fucking much.

that I wonder, if you miss me, too.

I love you.