House Of Moon

House of Moon

An undeniable magnet are we

joined at the heart

confused in the mind

why?

Emotions

knocking at our heart's door

I want in. I am drawn to you

You are pulling me towards you

I can't resist your sweetness

your kindness

I can't eat nor sleep

my thoughts are guided towards you

For you, have stirred my emotions

that I don't know what to do.

What can I do?

As I exchange my sweetness with you

is this what you truly desire?

all is still unknown

As I draw the cards

The House of the moon reads:

You have a sweetheart that

Loves you.

My head is a jungle

my thoughts are in wonder

my heart has opened the door

my passion heightened

my emotions are ready to merge

with yours. Come in.

The risk is ours to take

let us allow this new discovery

this visit

of a treasure by the divine

and make the best of it.

In My Thoughts Into My Words

The day I met you
Seems like you fell out of the sky
you are here
in my thoughts
into my words
on the page,
to make our day better than yesterday.
The phrases dance a tango
of intrigue between us
a lovely connection
I've only touched to describe
as I'm still getting to know you.
So we fly from one place to another
in each other mind discover
amazing things from each other
that's good.

 The road of understanding
we've had to patch the potholes
of roughness to pave a smooth ride
like storms come and go
and the rain washes the hurt
to brighten up the way
to make our day better than yesterday.
When the evening shadows fall
and the end of each night
I see you in the stars twinkling
that's you up there so bright.

 A beauty you are
your presence, a song, a gift, a poem
my words my thoughts, my muse
I pray for your soul as I do for us all
not knowing what tomorrow
will bring,
Having faith that
may God make our day better
than yesterday.

 

Beauty of Her Own Mystery

She a beauty of her own mystery
you want to know her more
but won't leave her comfort zone
you have to accept her as she is.
when I ask her something
she pauses, may not answer
maybe I have violated lines
only to exacerbate feelings
a roaring thunderstorm in her
no intention to hurt
but it does
and that makes us blue,
so we ride the storm
with apologies
forgiveness and understanding
we are worth knowing
as friends do.
She has all the wonders of a sweet soul
that rides the clouds of calm
in the bluest of skies
just like her eyes
if I can only see because I am blind
Right now she retreats in the stillness
of her mind
regain her strength
her compassion
her will to journey on
and I am still in awe of her
all that she is, all that she will be
even when she thinks less of herself
I will always be
in awe of the beauty
of her mystery.

Some Regrets

Some regrets

this time in my life

I just have to keep moving on.

I think of you

oh every now and then

at times of what we've could have been.

Some regrets

See your face in places we use to go

Wonder do I ever cross your mind?

Sad you see

has been my life

with all my struggles and strives.

It's just this stillness of time

thoughts of you run through my mind

Where did we go so wrong?

Memories come and go

every time I listen to the radio

playing our favorite song...singing

"Hold me, don't let me go"...

But you've gone

to someone else

and I am left 

with some, regrets.

She's Just, Rain - (Poem)

She catches you, off guard
        kisses falling from the sky above
she lets you know, she's coming
She's all love
She's just, rain.

Her scent is sweet
       like the Earth or Ocean breeze
when the sun shines or nightfall
       She'll soothe your deepest sleep
She's all love
She's just, rain.

She hides in gentle pain
       no one knows this rain
she's so mysterious
       yet, very curious
about you
she loves, you.

She'll wash away
       your fears
She'll kiss away
       your tears
all through your years
She's all love
She's just, rain.

She'll follow
       you around
She loves
       above the the ground
Sensitive girl, she's my world
She's love
She's just, rain.

Funny Sweet
       So sincere
Dances to her music
       she don't care
As long as she's with you
       your heart and soul
go insane
She's just, rain.

Here she comes, again
       Never, a fair weathered friend
She'll be with you
       till your life here, ends
You'll finally meet
       cause you love her
She's just, rain.

Droplets of love, my rain
kissing you, it's rain
Oh, oh, oh, oh,
oh, rain.

Conversations That Last All Night

 When talking to a friend there will be times a window is open due to mutual trust.We feel comfortable to share piece of ourselves to them because we've been invited to. With this honor, it is only respectable with great care and consideration, I return with respect and love, something deep to share with them. And the conversation can go all night. (the picture is of dawn I took a few weeks ago)

Tatts:  You are truly gifted, Sweet Kat

 

Kat: Thank you, Tatts. I think being gifted has been a hinder for me. Not many people like hanging with someone like me.  More for my talent than for me as a person.

Tatts: They misread you. So sad.

Kat:  Yes, I know I have often been misread. That I know well. I suppose that's why I'm still single.

Tatts: You must have been very vibrant and bubbly.

Kat: In a way, I still am very much like that. I heard that yesterday at a going away gathering I had.

Tatts:  You are still very vibrant.

Kat: The only thing that changes is your body gets older... and if one accepts the changes... you can grow older gracefully. And some of us look good well. I know I do and I'm happy for that. lol

Tatts: Yes. I agree. You are very different from the girls I know here.

Kat: Thank you. Well, yeah I know I am very different for sure. I never wanted to be like other people. That's the beauty of being an individual... being truly you.

Tatts: So correct, Sweetie

Tatts: I guess you can't keep up any more, Sweetie.

Kat: You know all through the years I see the same complaints with people saying they really want a nice person for a relationship.... but fool around with extreme naughty people that just want to play and are not relationship material at all or they are in between relationships. They never tell you what they want and leave you hanging. They say one thing and want something else.
I was never into mind games. And I won't settle for just anyone either.

Tatts: The sincere ones are very very rare to find, Sweet Kat

 Kat: You got that right. That's why I'm alone.

Tatts: You know. The girl I share accommodation with... we have an open relationship. It's two years and a bit. I know one day it will be over. I know she is into others. it's so hard.

Kats: making tea

Tatts:  Alright

Kat: Yeah it must be hard for you. I couldn't do it (open relationship). I'm so fucking loyal - even to myself. I respect relationships of all kinds. When I come across someone that's in a relationship and they want to fool around with me, I question their devotion, their loyalty... and I'm like, No way.

Tatts: You don't know all about me, Kat.

Tatts: While reading this thread from the start, a friend stumbled on that info. He sent a pm regretting what I had faced when 17.

Kat: Likewise you don't know all about me either. But what I have shared I have conveyed with sincerity. There has been way more hardship before the cancer, before sister's suicide.
as we get to know each other, we allow a bit more as time goes by. So I hope you get your PM.

Tatts: Must be very good. I won't write any more about myself. Sorry.

Tatts: Bad times in our lives. Alas.

Kat: I understand. I am not one to reveal on a public post. If one ask a question I will answer what I feel can be appropriate to me and to the one I am answering. If I feel it's too personal, there is PM for that. and I respect that. Most of my friendships from EP and now here were based on true sincerity within each other. It's nice to have good friendships and I remain extremely stubborn to the vow of loyalty.

Tatts: I lack the maturity you possess.

Kat:  well believe me when I tell you, maturity comes with age and experience. Maturity comes to all of us...at different times different situations. I relish that I am constantly maturing into a quirky wise woman. lol! You are an old soul, Tatts.

Much like I was at your age. I have a forever young heart and I can never change that. lol

Tatts: And I act on the little common sense I have.

Kat: And I am so glad you do have Common sense... I can tell and I like that in you, Tatts Sweetie.

Kat:  Common Sense is a precious valuable quality and rare this day and age. Selfless acts are rare than in my younger days. Consideration for others lacks so much now I am abhorred by the behavior of people.
If I had had a child, I know they would be loving respectable caring human beings because that is the way I am and live.

Tatts: I trust what you wrote here. I have battled odds since i was 17. Lost mom to cancer. Could not adjust to step mother. Moved out. Have been living like that. Letting my instincts guide me.

Kat:  And your instincts is exactly what you ought be going by, my love. You are doing the right thing in doing so. No matter what another may say, even myself can never change what you instincts can guide you, Now, if what a person says matches your instincts, you are in harmony - which is a lovely feeling in itself and rare.

Kat:  These are the conversations I like and admire to have with others on my post as well. I keep saying to people, if you want a Badabing bar, go open one up, I'll close the place and come over and play. But here ( my post) I like just plain fun and good conversation.

Tatts: I like myself

Kat:  And you should like yourself. I'm happy that you do, love. You can't like others if you don't like yourself.
I know I do. I say every morning... ok Kat, time for another adventure, be open, be nice and don't let the door slap you on your ass! lol!

Tatts:  I like myself for whatever I am.
I don't like the 17th birthday. But, I occupy myself with other things. I don't let the past bog me down. if somebody doesn't like me, I quietly move. No complaints.

Kat:  I too have no complaints...just frustrations.

Tatts: I am terrible at diplomacy. I speak up if I feel I should give an opinion. Else, I keep my mouth shut.

Tatts:  I felt you are fond of me. That you are straightforward.
That's why I wrote this much.

 Kat:  And I am very very fond of you, love.

Kat:  At 17. my father left home, had an affair. Left us and mom went back to NYC for a time. It was difficult hold the fort with Mom. I later Forgave my father after their divorce and we got along till his death... we made peace and I love and miss him.
But during that 17th year in my life, I saw a strong woman in mom and said to myself... I can never be like her...but now that I am where I am today. According to a friend I have known for over 30 years... she said. Kate as she calls me from our radio days... you are the strongest woman I know. The sweetest and kind human being, you have never let me or anyone down... your parents are looking at you, proudly. I hope things are better for you. You are family to me. I said thank you so much. That means lots from you.

Tatts: Your friend assessed you very well. Even from long distance, i get the same feeling about you. That's honest, Kat. Luv

Kat:  I have come to know that when responding to someone, they may not deserve your diplomacy. So it's ok if you responded they way you did or do. We all can apologize but there are many times you just got to say something without holding back. Being straightforward is an admired quality, love. I have noticed that very much.

Tatts: I salute you. Brave person.

Kat: Thank you, love. I am the same online as I am in person. No need to be another persona. God it's tough enough being me why should I spend my time being a fake..I don't understand some people.

Tatts: The me inside me tells me that, Kat.

Kat: and I salute you too, Tatts.

Tatts: I don't understand one bit about lots of people. Here as well as in real life. They seem to have a personality disorder. Fakeness. Two faced. Possibly even more than two faces. God!

Kat: Yes some people have multiple personalities...yikes!

Tatts: So true reflections of the realities. Lovely words. Lovely song.

 Kat: Not to say we were all ugly girls as the song may imply... though some of us had awkward situations... so we can relate from it one way or another.

 

Tatts: Exactly, Kat.

Kat:  glad you liked it

Tatts: Oh yes. Lovely.

Tatts: Loveliest written communication i have had with anybody in a long, long time.

Kat: Maybe it should be a blog. lol

Tatts: A grand two-way communication.
I often talk to my inner self this way.

Kat: I do have a blog. Gosh I need to write something soon. I have neglected that. lately. But I do have lots of poetry and other written works, photography and videos I have made over the years. It's nice to have a home to share, for others to read.

Tatts: That must be lovely, Kat

Kat: I write my inner self on the page a lot. lol Helps me make sense of myself, right?

Tatts: Mono-dialogue is my own word. lol

Oh and by the way the song we were discussing 

is just below