I wish...

I wish I could take back all I said

I know I hurt you

which hurt me badly too.

But I felt I had to defend myself

my true self.

Even if I am in transition to better myself

I want you to know I will be the person you know

better than before.

I know wherever you are,

I know deep down, you want that for me, too.

Not a day will go by

that I will think about you

I wish you would think about me too

I want to see how strong I can be

so you can be proud of me

as I am proud of you.

No matter where I go what I do

whom I meet

I will always wonder

the look on your face

meeting you

face to face.

God, help me

I miss you so fucking much.

that I wonder, if you miss me, too.

I love you.

In My Thoughts Into My Words

The day I met you
Seems like you fell out of the sky
you are here
in my thoughts
into my words
on the page,
to make our day better than yesterday.
The phrases dance a tango
of intrigue between us
a lovely connection
I've only touched to describe
as I'm still getting to know you.
So we fly from one place to another
in each other mind discover
amazing things from each other
that's good.

 The road of understanding
we've had to patch the potholes
of roughness to pave a smooth ride
like storms come and go
and the rain washes the hurt
to brighten up the way
to make our day better than yesterday.
When the evening shadows fall
and the end of each night
I see you in the stars twinkling
that's you up there so bright.

 A beauty you are
your presence, a song, a gift, a poem
my words my thoughts, my muse
I pray for your soul as I do for us all
not knowing what tomorrow
will bring,
Having faith that
may God make our day better
than yesterday.

 

Beauty of Her Own Mystery

She a beauty of her own mystery
you want to know her more
but won't leave her comfort zone
you have to accept her as she is.
when I ask her something
she pauses, may not answer
maybe I have violated lines
only to exacerbate feelings
a roaring thunderstorm in her
no intention to hurt
but it does
and that makes us blue,
so we ride the storm
with apologies
forgiveness and understanding
we are worth knowing
as friends do.
She has all the wonders of a sweet soul
that rides the clouds of calm
in the bluest of skies
just like her eyes
if I can only see because I am blind
Right now she retreats in the stillness
of her mind
regain her strength
her compassion
her will to journey on
and I am still in awe of her
all that she is, all that she will be
even when she thinks less of herself
I will always be
in awe of the beauty
of her mystery.

Spirit of a Woman

A ghost invitingly appears to me
daily
speaks to me, with words so sweetly
She soothes this turbulence of my heart.
she stirs calmness to my soul
yet, I try to reach out to her
but she is so far away
I can only cry for her
in my sleep.
If,
and I say, If
she only knew how deep I have fallen
in this ocean of love for her
I am drowning for her, near death
Yet, she keeps alive.
Though
She is only a dream set fire to my soul
I cannot reach her, I cannot see her
she only exist in thousand pages
I have written, just for her
through my years of solitude.
In those pages, I tell her everything
where I have been, what I have done
where I'm going and when I think of her.
Nightly affirmations I send
because
she's must be an angel
an angel
I cannot see, I cannot hear, I cannot touch.
An excruciating love pain
buried within me
she's a living memory
she is a haunting lover
a ghost to me.
I so wish, she were alive
in front of me.
As loving as she is, she tortures me
with this love, I have only, for her.
This invisible, spirit of a woman.

Some Regrets

Some regrets

this time in my life

I just have to keep moving on.

I think of you

oh every now and then

at times of what we've could have been.

Some regrets

See your face in places we use to go

Wonder do I ever cross your mind?

Sad you see

has been my life

with all my struggles and strives.

It's just this stillness of time

thoughts of you run through my mind

Where did we go so wrong?

Memories come and go

every time I listen to the radio

playing our favorite song...singing

"Hold me, don't let me go"...

But you've gone

to someone else

and I am left 

with some, regrets.

Just So You Know (Poem)

Just So You Know
I don't care
if you come across crazy
I don't  care
If the sky is  a little hazy
I do care
that I'm drawn very much to you
Just so you know.

I don't care
if you got a third eye on your face
I don't care
how far you fell from jaded grace
I do care
to encourage you to pick yourself up
Just so you know.

Just so you know
you can hide, but for so long
I'll just keep knocking gently at your heart's door.
Just so you know.

I'll be here and I'm not going away
Please don't  you stray... from me.
I don't care
as long as I talk truth to you
I don't care
as long as I hear it from you
I do care
what we share, I'll stand by you, side by side
low ebb or high tide
Just so you know
Just so you know.

Photo Taken @ Ivy Creek Park

Kat Borges Photography 2016

Moon Girl - Blame It On The Moon (Poem)

Moon Girl
From the moment  we met
I was drawn to you
you said you were a lover
of words,too.
Like the moon
you are her spawn
cradled in her arms
abiding by her love
you cradle me in yours
rapture by your spell.

An enchantment, an elation
of mystic yet mysterious wonder
curious a child
desire to know more of one  
you gently pull me in
like a magnet
with no regret
and I'm wrapped around
this aura,this beauty
so bright, so luminous.

Your sweet arms envelop me
you don't want to let me go
but don't you know, I don't want
you to let go
I'm here to stay
yes, here to stay with you
for as long as you want me to.

You want that, you want me?
You need that, you need me?

Feelings for you
I blame it on the moon
I'm hypnotized
I realize
how much you mean
to me right now
why when how
you ask?

I can't explain this alluring intrigue
for I just want you
yes you, even more.
More today
than yesterday
and more of you
tomorrow.
If it's way too soon,
just blame it on the moon.

Oh my head keeps spinning
tilted off my axis, it's magical.
Full rotation over you
Don't make me wait
another 27 days
till you come around again.
For I want to go
and be with you
right now.
So if it's way too soon,
just blame it on the moon.