I
have freed myself from a personal
challenge that had me locked up for years. It's like a prison on to myself, and
I am out. Everything on the outside is so new because it's changed, I have changed too. Now I'm not
saying change is good or bad, it is what it is.
You
get to a point in your life if you don't like something that's going on in your
life and you've had enough - it's time to let it go. The baggage of the past
slows out progress to move forward, to achieve what is intended for us to do -
find our true purpose of our existence. In my case, my writings and
photography.
It's
not so much leaving people behind, sometimes it's a change of the way the
dynamics of a relationship - regardless of what it is. If you want your
relationships to work, then put the effort out and do it. Communicate and make your intentions
known and listen to the feedback. At least come to some agreement. Some people
will get it, and some won't. But my point is, You have to come clean with
yourself.
Make yourself known to yourself that you are going to be true to
yourself and go for what you desire out of life. Those that love you will come
for the ride, cheer you on and that's the best offer anyone can receive as they wish the best and
be there for you. Some people you may have to let go because they serve no
purpose in seeing you achieve. They just want to stall your progress - those
need to do some personal cleansing and look for the beauty within themselves if
they choose too.
There
has been chaotic energy around me the last couple of months that brought me to
this point. It's energy gave me this will to be free. I feel richer for life, I
want to breathe and share my love and kindness with you. I love myself so much
now, that I can take whatever you have to offer. Only if you do this with the love. I can understand pain
as we all have it whether it be physical, mental, spiritual, emotional or all
rolled up as one.
We
each must learn that it is up to us to embrace our wishes, our dreams and make
them come true no matter how long it takes. Never take yourself for granted and
know in time, all wishes and dreams will arrive, when the universe says you are
ready.
I
can only write from experience and look
back with loving memories that I cannot return to that state of living. I
am free to be creative with all aspects
of my life and wish to share them with
you and with that special person to complete the puzzle of my life.
Each
piece is a puzzle if we don't look in the pile to search for it. Though we have
to move forward no matter if we don't want to. Eventually, you feel a snap and
say it's time, so here I am.
I am
not saying something to you that you all ready know, maybe you don't. We are
all different and cleansing the soul, varies from person to person.
Some
people have to go away and figure things out. I was alone for a good number of
years so I am compelled to be among the masses to figure what's out there and
take risks. At the end of each day when I say my prayers and affirmations. I
ask forgiveness for any wrong doing or sins I may have committed, and go to bed
with a clear conscious. This is my way of moving forward.
I
can't tell you it's easy, nor tell you it's hard. All I can tell you is, if you
wish or desire to make things better in your life, then the choice I had to make is taking the risk. no matter the
outcome, I know I tried my best.
I can think all I want, over think much? Yes, done that too. I can't
weigh pros and cons too much cause that can drive me crazy. I am taking it as a
reflection of what to keep or change in my life. I am tired of putting things
in the back of my mind saying later, I am done with it.
I am
tired of my survival mode which I had to see things in this way or that way -
it is what it is and I have to accept it and be open to compromise or come to
an agreement with myself and others.
I
also have to listen to my heart and allow it to speak. Take the risk to tell
someone how I feel about them and accept
the outcome. Again, feeling good that I
tried, and did my best and move forward with or without them. But I will not
miss any opportunity in deny my feelings - that is something I did lots in the
past. I am done with that past, too.
We
all connect for a reason. Whatever that reason is will reveal itself as time
goes by.
We
can't force, nor be confused trying to figure a situation it out. Maybe we're suppose to learn something
from all of this .So I am allowing things to flow and not push for answers
because they will come when I am ready to receive them.
I am
so into flow cause I have pushed myself too much. I know I have been very hard
on myself and felt I had to be gentle
with my surroundings. Continue being true to myself and with others. I have no
time for bullshit. I desire personal balance in both my mind and heart. I feel stronger than ever. I see things
brighter clearer and welcome this passion for life.
I am
happy and in love with myself. I desire that for all. This is the new me and I
am embracing it all.
I
wish you to be happy and love yourself, too. It's a beautiful feeling.
When
you have that feeling, nothing can stop you from moving ahead.
To
be happy with love in my heart is the
only forever feeling I want in my life, and I am in it to win what's coming.
I am
free to receive.
I
have just said goodbye to my old self.
I
love you,
Me
