I see I write what I feel. Either you agree or not it, doesn't matter. What matters, is that we are all here to experience life, regardless the ups and downs. Kiss,kiss,baby be unique. Be you and thanks for stopping by.
All text written and some photos copyrighted by Author: Katherine A. Borges
A ghost invitingly appears to me daily speaks to me, with words so sweetly She soothes this turbulence of my heart. she stirs calmness to my soul yet, I try to reach out to her but she is so far away I can only cry for her in my sleep. If, and I say, If she only knew how deep I have fallen in this ocean of love for her I am drowning for her, near death Yet, she keeps alive. Though She is only a dream set fire to my soul I cannot reach her, I cannot see her she only exist in thousand pages I have written, just for her through my years of solitude. In those pages, I tell her everything where I have been, what I have done where I'm going and when I think of her. Nightly affirmations I send because she's must be an angel an angel I cannot see, I cannot hear, I cannot touch. An excruciating love pain buried within me she's a living memory she is a haunting lover a ghost to me. I so wish, she were alive in front of me. As loving as she is, she tortures me with this love, I have only, for her. This invisible, spirit of a woman.
Just
So You Know I don't care if you come across crazy I don'tcare If the sky isa little hazy I do care that I'm drawn very much to
you Just so you know.
I don't care if you got a third eye on
your face I don't care how far you fell from jaded
grace I do care to encourage you to pick
yourself up Just so you know.
Just so you know you can hide, but for so long I'll just keep knocking
gently at your heart's door. Just so you know.
I'll be here and I'm not
going away Please don'tyou stray... from me. I don't care as long as I talk truth to
you I don't care as long as I hear it from you I do care what we share, I'll stand by
you, side by side low ebb or high tide Just so you know Just so you know.
Photo Taken @ Ivy Creek Park Kat Borges Photography 2016
Moon Girl From the moment we met I was drawn to you you said you were a lover of words,too. Like the moon you are her spawn cradled in her arms abiding by her love you cradle me in yours rapture by your spell.
An enchantment, an elation of mystic yet mysterious wonder curious a child desire to know more of one you gently pull me in like a magnet with no regret and I'm wrapped around this aura,this beauty so bright, so luminous. Your sweet arms envelop me you don't want to let me go but don't you know, I don't want you to let go I'm here to stay yes, here to stay with you for as long as you want me to. You want that, you want me? You need that, you need me? Feelings for you I blame it on the moon I'm hypnotized I realize how much you mean to me right now why when how you ask? I can't explain this alluring intrigue for I just want you yes you, even more. More today than yesterday and more of you tomorrow. If it's way too soon, just blame it on the moon. Oh my head keeps spinning tilted off my axis, it's magical. Full rotation over you Don't make me wait another 27 days till you come around again. For I want to go and be with you right now. So if it's way too soon, just blame it on the moon.
She catches you, off guard
kisses falling from the sky above
she lets you know, she's coming
She's all love
She's just, rain.
Her scent is sweet
like the Earth or Ocean breeze
when the sun shines or nightfall
She'll soothe your deepest sleep
She's all love
She's just, rain.
She hides in gentle pain
no one knows this rain
she's so mysterious
yet, very curious
about you
she loves, you.
She'll wash away
your fears
She'll kiss away
your tears
all through your years
She's all love
She's just, rain.
She'll follow
you around
She loves
above the the ground
Sensitive girl, she's my world
She's love
She's just, rain.
Funny Sweet
So sincere
Dances to her music
she don't care
As long as she's with you
your heart and soul
go insane
She's just, rain.
Here she comes, again
Never, a fair weathered friend
She'll be with you
till your life here, ends
You'll finally meet
cause you love her
She's just, rain.
Droplets of love, my rain
kissing you, it's rain
Oh, oh, oh, oh,
oh, rain.
Sweet Swag Express Damn ! I spit my coffee as she chugged on by, A stacked steamroller freight train that caught my eye. Choo-chooed into town like as if she don't care, A high -cut skirt Conductor with fringe numbers just hanging there. All Aboard!! locomotive mama chugging in streamline dress Fast tracking whistle stopping caboose The sweet swag express. Derailment If not careful keep your eyes on the track, she loves that whistle blowing as I checked her back. All Aboard!! Leaving junction without regrets, Hopping on that sexy cargo The sweet swag express!
Sometimes a group of photos need a bit of music to convey a message. I thought I would work on this project as I found these photos profound the morning I took them. I have yet to capture a set like this again. With a bit of help from Sting's song. I think I got my message across, clear. Enjoy the beauty I saw that one lovely morning gracing our Central Virginia sky.
Sunday, September 18, 2016
You have to take care of you... before you can take care of others... it's a must!
Sometimes you just need a little rain to wash away... a few things in your life... let it go!
Gently, Tell me (written 2007)
There is an ache in my heart where it once fluttered there are tears distorting the vision of your face there is a coldness, a frostbite that won’t heal where deep emotions existed and surrounded me with warmth.
Yet, there is a distance between us that could benefit us both benefit by way of healing, for solitude is a great re-juvenator to our individualism.
Yet, I am lost without words I wait patiently for my silence alone is not enough to sustain the deep absence I have of you in my heart where my spirit still hopes and yearns.
Yet, I only wish you to heal in hopes that you recognize how much you mean to me and if you wanted to see me it can be done only if you are interested for this will not work one sided it will take both our effort to evolve from this intrigue for each other, very slowly, for I have not felt such joy ring and shake me so greatly.
Now, I feel almost lost searching for your letters in an empty mailbox or rereading the notes we so freely passed between us, I don’t want that to end. I only wish you well and I cannot and have not lied of how I have felt about you.
So please, if you are not in the least bit interested in me romantically be so kind to gently tell me, this way I can stop being a fool swept away with this aura of love this beautiful intrigue and be left alone to cry and tug my heart to stop playing that sweet, sweet song that has moved me so.
Personally, it will take me a long time to recover from something so close to love that I sincerely doubt if I can ever pen up a feeling similar to this again.
Thursday, August 18, 2016
Know who you are.Learn your true self.Feed your soul with Undeniable
spirit. Face your challenges like the warrior and protector of your
goodness. Forgive yourself so you can forgive others.But defend your
truth till your last dying breath. Because truth and love...is all there is. I love you.
When talking to a friend there will be times a window is open due to mutual trust.We feel comfortable to share piece of ourselves to them because we've been invited to. With this honor, it is only respectable with great care and consideration, I return with respect and love, something deep to share with them. And the conversation can go all night. (the picture is of dawn I took a few weeks ago)
Tatts:You are truly gifted, Sweet Kat
Kat:Thank you, Tatts. I think being
gifted has been a hinder for me. Not many people like hanging with someone like
me.More for my talent than for me as a
person.
Tatts:
They misread you. So sad.
Kat:Yes,
I know I have often been misread. That I know well. I suppose that's why I'm
still single.
Tatts:You must have been very vibrant and bubbly.
Kat:
In a way, I still am very much like
that. I heard that yesterday at a going away gathering I had.
Tatts:You
are still very vibrant.
Kat:
The only thing that changes is your
body gets older... and if one accepts the changes... you can grow older gracefully.
And some of us look good well. I know I do and I'm happy for that. lol
Tatts:
Yes. I agree. You are very different
from the girls I know here.
Kat:
Thank you. Well, yeah I know I am very
different for sure. I never wanted to be like other people. That's the beauty
of being an individual... being truly you.
Tatts:
So correct, Sweetie
Tatts:
I guess you can't keep up any more,
Sweetie.
Kat: You know all through
the years I see the same complaints with people saying they really want a nice
person for a relationship.... but fool around with extreme naughty people that
just want to play and are not relationship material at all or they are in
between relationships. They never tell you what they want and leave you
hanging. They say one thing and want something else.
I was never into mind games. And I won't settle for just anyone either.
Tatts:
The sincere ones are very very rare to
find, Sweet Kat
Kat:You got that right. That's why I'm alone.
Tatts:
You know. The girl I share
accommodation with... we have an open relationship. It's two years and a bit. I
know one day it will be over. I know she is into others. it's so hard.
Kats:
making tea
Tatts:Alright
Kat: Yeah it must be hard
for you. I couldn't do it (open relationship). I'm so fucking loyal - even to
myself. I respect relationships of all kinds. When I come across someone that's
in a relationship and they want to fool around with me, I question their
devotion, their loyalty... and I'm like, No way.
Tatts:
You don't know all about me, Kat.
Tatts:
While reading this thread from the
start, a friend stumbled on that info. He sent a pm regretting what I had faced
when 17.
Kat: Likewise you don't
know all about me either. But what I have shared I have conveyed with
sincerity. There has been way more hardship before the cancer, before sister's
suicide.
as we get to know each other, we allow a bit more as time goes by. So I hope
you get your PM.
Tatts:
Must be very good. I won't write any
more about myself. Sorry.
Tatts:
Bad times in our lives. Alas.
Kat: I understand. I am
not one to reveal on a public post. If one ask a question I will answer what I
feel can be appropriate to me and to the one I am answering. If I feel it's too
personal, there is PM for that. and I respect that. Most of my friendships from
EP and now here were based on true sincerity within each other. It's nice to
have good friendships and I remain extremely stubborn to the vow of loyalty.
Tatts:
I lack the maturity you possess.
Kat: well believe me when I tell you, maturity
comes with age and experience. Maturity comes to all of us...at different times
different situations. I relish that I am constantly maturing into a quirky wise
woman. lol! You are an old soul, Tatts.
Much like I was at
your age. I have a forever young heart and I can never change that. lol
Tatts:
And I act on the little common sense I
have.
Kat: And I am so glad you
do have Common sense... I can tell and I like that in you, Tatts Sweetie.
Kat:
Common
Sense is a precious valuable quality and rare this day and age. Selfless acts
are rare than in my younger days. Consideration for others lacks so much now I
am abhorred by the behavior of people.
If I had had a child, I know they would be loving respectable caring human
beings because that is the way I am and live.
Tatts: I trust what you wrote here. I have battled odds since i
was 17. Lost mom to cancer. Could not adjust to step mother. Moved out. Have
been living like that. Letting my instincts guide me.
Kat:
And
your instincts is exactly what you ought be going by, my love. You are doing
the right thing in doing so. No matter what another may say, even myself can
never change what you instincts can guide you, Now, if what a person says
matches your instincts, you are in harmony - which is a lovely feeling in
itself and rare.
Kat:
These
are the conversations I like and admire to have with others on my post as well.
I keep saying to people, if you want a Badabing bar, go open one up, I'll close
the place and come over and play. But here ( my post) I like just plain fun and
good conversation.
Tatts: I like myself
Kat:
And
you should like yourself. I'm happy that you do, love. You can't like others if
you don't like yourself.
I know I do. I say every morning... ok Kat, time for another adventure, be
open, be nice and don't let the door slap you on your ass! lol!
Tatts:
I
like myself for whatever I am.
I don't like the 17th birthday. But, I occupy myself with other things. I don't
let the past bog me down. if somebody doesn't like me, I quietly move. No
complaints.
Kat:I too have no complaints...just frustrations.
Tatts:
I am terrible at diplomacy. I speak up
if I feel I should give an opinion. Else, I keep my mouth shut.
Tatts:
I
felt you are fond of me. That you are straightforward.
That's why I wrote this much.
Kat:
And
I am very very fond of you, love.
Kat:
At
17. my father left home, had an affair. Left us and mom went back to NYC for a
time. It was difficult hold the fort with Mom. I later Forgave my father after
their divorce and we got along till his death... we made peace and I love and
miss him.
But during that 17th year in my life, I saw a strong woman in mom and said to
myself... I can never be like her...but now that I am where I am today. According
to a friend I have known for over 30 years... she said. Kate as she calls me
from our radio days... you are the strongest woman I know. The sweetest and
kind human being, you have never let me or anyone down... your parents are
looking at you, proudly. I hope things are better for you. You are family to
me. I said thank you so much. That means lots from you.
Tatts: Your friend assessed you very well. Even from long
distance, i get the same feeling about you. That's honest, Kat. Luv
Kat:
I
have come to know that when responding to someone, they may not deserve your
diplomacy. So it's ok if you responded they way you did or do. We all can
apologize but there are many times you just got to say something without
holding back. Being straightforward is an admired quality, love. I have noticed
that very much.
Tatts: I salute you. Brave person.
Kat:
Thank you, love. I am the same online
as I am in person. No need to be another persona. God it's tough enough being
me why should I spend my time being a fake..I don't understand some people.
Tatts:
The me inside me tells me that, Kat.
Kat:
and I salute you too, Tatts.
Tatts:
I don't understand one bit about lots
of people. Here as well as in real life. They seem to have a personality
disorder. Fakeness. Two faced. Possibly even more than two faces. God!
Kat:
Yes some people have multiple
personalities...yikes!
Tatts:
So true reflections of the realities.
Lovely words. Lovely song.
Kat:
Not to say we were all ugly girls as
the song may imply... though some of us had awkward situations... so we can
relate from it one way or another.
Tatts:
Exactly, Kat.
Kat: glad
you liked it
Tatts: Oh yes. Lovely.
Tatts:
Loveliest written communication i have
had with anybody in a long, long time.
Kat:
Maybe it should be a blog. lol
Tatts:
A grand two-way communication.
I often talk to my inner self this way.
Kat:
I do have a blog. Gosh I need to write
something soon. I have neglected that. lately. But I do have lots of poetry and
other written works, photography and videos I have made over the years. It's
nice to have a home to share, for others to read.
Tatts:
That must be lovely, Kat
Kat:
I write my inner self on the page a
lot. lol Helps me make sense of myself, right?
